God has perfect timing; never early, never late. It takes a little patience and a whole lot of faith… but it’s worth the wait.
First and foremost, I want to apologize for how negligent I’ve been. Things have been crazy in my personal life, putting my blog and YouTube on the back burner for awhile. With that being said, I have some big, big, BIG changes happening. It has taken a lot of planning, soul searching, and getting past my fears. TODAY I will be packing up my little car and moving across the country to San Diego, California!
For as long as I can remember I have wanted to be a hairstylist. And for the past year I’ve been living out that part of my dream working at St. Louis’ top salon with some of the best hairstylists in the business! But the second part of “the dream” was to be a hairstylist in California. I’m not sure what it was that has always drawn me there, but California seemed like the place to be. It’s a funny thing because I think I was 15 years old when I decided that’s where I wanted to end up and I had never actually been there! I can count on one hand, specifically two fingers, how many times I’ve visited and both times have been some of my most memorable vacations.
I’ve had a lot of patience over the years with living out this dream of moving across the country. Patience that I didn’t even realize I was practicing! I’m not here to shove my beliefs down your throat, but this move has truly been the workings of God. It’s been a silent prayer for ten years, “God, please let me live out my dreams.” Little did I know He was really listening and already had a plan in the works for me. And that is why He kept saying “no” until a few months ago.
This past year and a half has been very difficult for me in my personal life. I was brought to the end of myself and had no where left to turn. So after a few years of defiance, I turned my face back toward God. And through it all He has taught me how to trust Him. Believe me, it was not an easy journey. It has been years in the making and up until this past year I think I was just collecting information about Jesus. I knew who He was, I knew about Him, I knew things He had done, but I didn’t know Him on a personal level. I never had a relationship with Him until now. And it’s still a work in progress!
This year, I finally got to the point in my faith where I said, “Alright, what I’ve been doing hasn’t been working. Please take this on for me…I’m putting all my eggs in your basket. I trust You fully.” And as soon as the words left my lips the opportunity to move fell into my lap. All of a sudden I had a place to live out there, with people that I know and love! After we had worked out the details of my living situation, I was really starting to panic. Was this really happening? How was I going to tell my family? My friends? My co-workers? My clients? I was stressing, to say the least. On top of all this, where in the heck was I going to work?! How was I going to make money? Did I have to retake my state boards? And what the… are those stress pimples?!
I finally took a deep breathe and slowly I started telling everyone that the move was happening. But, panic was still in my heart. The whole making money thing was really stressing me out. Yes, I could move across the country. That’s the easy part. But how was I actually going to be able to afford to do this? Was it worth leaving my amazing job, here, in St. Louis?? And as I was having all these thoughts and arguing with God, trusting Him but still not completely sold, He threw something else at me: a job.
I mean, it was pretty much handed to me on a silver platter and I think my mind is still blown! I was telling a friend about my move and my worries when she presented me with an opportunity. The family she had been nannying for for the past two and a half years, in St. Louis, just so happened to be moving to San Diego and are in need of a new nanny. Guess who has nannying experience from the college days? Yes, you’re right: me. ARE YOU KIDDING?! THIS IS REAL LIFE! I cannot even make this stuff up, guys and gals!
So, this is happening. I have a place to live comfortably. I have told my family, friends, co-workers and clients. I had my last day at KINK Hair Salon. I have a job as a nanny. I will be retaking my state boards and getting my cosmetology license in California to eventually live “the dream”. My skin, well, I’m still fighting the stress pimples but they’ll go away in time (which reminds me: I have some new skincare products I can’t wait to tell you about!!). At some point I’m bound to feel lonely and isolated, but I have plenty of reminders why this IS going to work. It is going to work because I have friends and family who love me and believe in me. It is going to work because I believe in myself. It is going to work because I have to make it work even when times get tough. It is going to work because my God has provided for me this far and I know I can fully trust Him.
This turned into a much deeper post than I anticipated. But this is the new me. I want to be open and I want to write about things that matter to me, unapologetically. And if it’s not something you’re into, then that’s okay! But I’ve always said I want this blog to be a safe place for people to find comfort. And don’t worry, it’s still going to be heavily beauty related because that is my passion, my art, and my release. I wanted to share my exciting news and let you know why I’ve been so absent.
Hillsboro will always be my heart. St. Louis will always be my home. And I look forward to seeing what San Diego has in store for me.
Catch you on the flip side!